weekend wars.

lately i've been really disappointed by people in general. people i've put all my faith and trust in. i somehow manage to end up feeling like the least important person in any kind of relationship and my feelings seem to have taken a backseat to new friends. i feel like i'm not exciting anymore, like something that just exists in this persons world. it seems that new friends can make you happier than i can. (key word here: new) i guess it's true what they say, you hurt the people you love the most. or something like that...i don't even know if that's the case anymore. i always let the actions of others affect me more than i should. i want to stop caring so much. i feel like i've become jaded. i don't want to make new friends anymore or get close to anyone because at some point i'll just be let down by them too. but i guess it's partly my fault. i'm known for quickly placing people on pedestals that they never earned to be on in the first place. i just want to give people the benefit of the doubt. i want to believe that they aren't capable of hurting me. but that's just silly. i'm tired of feeling this way. i need change. so much change.

in other news, i needed to get away for the weekend so i headed over to shreveport to see lauren. and this is what we did:

as promised:
i dyed my hair black.
it was quite the event.

before. byyye bye brown hair.

kara was documenting the events.
she was creepin' hardcore with the camera.
this was my impression of her.

and here we goooo.

i decided to let lauren do the honors.

told you. kara was creepin'.

20 minutes later.

and rinse!

now time to dry and straighten.

while lauren and kara were waiting...
hey jb.

they got bored.

alllll done!

after. ta da!

we're really good at being awkward.

yesterday we decided to paint. here's what i did!

3 little birds.

then we somehow got wrangled into meeting some people downtown for a show.

better than ezra.

we tried to make the best of it...wooooooo.
surrounded by douche bags we decided to leave for something more entertaining.

like this.
happy halloween bitches.
heyyyyy rimmy!

yeah...so that was my weekend. i win.

p.s. lauren and i went house hunting yesterday. keeping our fingers crossed that 741 wilkinson will be the new 2505.